Day 17 - no more hot water

Well I haven't talked to the family much today, but I for one feel amazing.  I haven't had this much sustained energy and mental clarity since high school, maybe never for the mental clarity and focus.  Who would have known that so much that goes on in our bodies and minds could be affected by something so simple?  Those who have known me recently have noticed an increase or presence of more anger and aggression. I don't feel any of that anymore.  I now have a relatively large list of symptoms that I am determined are a direct result of the candida.  Now I will know that if any of them come back it is not because of a bad or long day or being sick or whatever, its because of the candida and I can eliminate it very quickly.

There has been so much revelation by observing Ian and Corinne and especially myself to see the dramatic changes which have only taken place from this program.  Tomorrow night is our fruit test so Monday will be the determining factor for the candida being eradicated sufficiently that sugar does not have a revitalizing affect on it.  If we pass and no symptoms return then we can continue with moderate fruit in our diet.  After a few more days we will try it with bread (yeast).

The greatest lesson thus far has been the knowledge of self.  I think we often become like the frog in the pot of cool water whose heat is turned up slowly.  Turn it up fast and he jumps right out but slowly and he never notices the change until the change is so significant that he is forever and in a sense irrevocably altered.  Without a moment of self awareness and inspection there is no way of knowing what the true situation is and how it came to be.  This has been that moment for me.  I feel like I know myself and my family so much more now than ever.  We have bonded together as a team to understand ourselves and each other. 

I now know how long I have been in that hot water and just how hot it actually got.  Fortunately, its effects are not irrevocable.  I feel empowered and alive, healthy and vibrant far younger than my years.  I feel like we have been led to understand our children in ways that none other is able and as a result have a gateway to the root of their minds and hearts. 
The biggest impression on me was the other night when i was feeling so rough and Corinne slipped out to go to work and took the baby and left me alone (dying) with the other two.  I slept the entire night except for a few groggy moments.  during those moments I realized that they were there and unsupervised for multiple hours.  They were playing with their toys in the living room right by me and never broke a whisper, they never argued about anything. They got our their playdoe by themselves and even cleaned up their mess when they were done. After I woke up around nine-thirty they were both sitting on their beds with books and in their jammies.  I asked them who told them to do those things and they said that the sun had gone down and so they figured that they should put up their toys and get their jammies on.  Daddy was not feeling well so they didn't want to ask if it was time to go to bed so they just got their books and sat on their beds without a word and read until someone got home to tell them it was time to turn out the light and go to sleep.
These are the things that make me proud of being a father.  I am blessed by the things and people God has put in my life to lead us in making these powerful and difficult, life changing decisions.  To them I am eternally indebted.  Without these things I would not be able to truly know my family and would have faced a very long road of struggle and confusion both for myself and for my son especially.  Thank you family for trusting in me and thank you for taking the expedition with me.
Here's to life...more abundant!